Bond and Murcielago

Today was fun fun fun. It started off with a movie. Dad, bro and me went to pick Dharma and Kingo from their house and drop us 'kids' at the sunnybank plaza. So we watch Quantum of Solace, the new James Bond movie. My GOD, Daniel Craig is the most hottest James Bond ever.. Very good movie!! you guys should watch it. A lot of action!! Though I wish they put more sexual scene in.. hee hee hee.. there was one short sexual scene.. I could just scream HOT HOT HOT!!!

Ok back to reality... Then we had lunch. As usual I got nuggets from KFC and my bubble tea.. yumm.. later we took the bus back to Kingo and Dharma's house and chill over there till my parents pick us up. While in their house, PS2 was on.. Of course my bro played Kingdom Hearts. You see, me and my bro we don't have any PS at all.. so this is like once in 4 months.. haha.. we only get to play PS2 while we're at their house cause obviously they have the PS. They also got PSP each. So they gave me one of their PSP to play 'Need for Speed'(i forgot what version was that) and we challenge each other.. Thats where the Murcielago comes in. I was bad at first.. always come in last... Then more practice.. I become quite a pro (only for that moment XD) I even beat my bro twice.. Very good achievement for me.. I'm only good at racing games. Never good at all those team games you have on PS or PC. One time I played Red Alert with my friend cause she forced me to.. I lost like in 5 minutes.. haha sad sad..

Maybe one day someone could teach me.. maybe play WarCraft.. haha..
Well as for now, we're all packed and ready for tomorrow's road trip.. It will last for a month and first stop is at Cuff Harbour, NSW (hope I spelled it correctly). So I won't be blogging that much..

and tomorrow marks one month from my birthday and I'll be turning 19.. YAY!!

Mwah!! xoxo

My Beloved friend, lover and toy

It all started when my dad got cable tv, Astro. So basically my bro and I got addicted to tv because Astro is just so awesome. I have to admit I miss it very much. Anyways back then we always watch Disney Channel, Cartoon Network and Nikelodeon. Disney channel is my all time favourite. One day, I was watching tv and then 'The Adventures of Winnie the Pooh' came on and OMG I was like stuck on that seat watching it. It introduces all the characters and when this particular character came out, I just fell in love with it. Its so adorable and just puts a smile on my face everytime.

First guess would be Pooh rite.. or Piglet.. yeah they're cute but I don't really go with the majority. The one I truly love is Tigger... or should I spell it his way: T i gg'r. He is so much fun and always so joyful and so funny as well. He wins my heart by saying TTFN (ta ta for now), his laugh and his song.

A wonderful thing is a Tigger;
A Tigger's a wonderful thing.
Their tops are made out of rubber,
their bottoms are made out of spring
They're bouncy, bouncy, bouncy, bouncy,
fun, fun, fun, fun, fun,
The most wonderful thing
about Tiggers is:
I'm the only one!

So now I have 3 Tiggers with me (my little babies). Each one has a different look and a different background. You might think I'm crazy but well I'm weird anyways and I'm proud of it. haha.
My first little tigger was when I was 13 or 14. This tigger is very special to me because I found him at Paris Disneyland when I visited France. (he is the one on the left of the photo) He is my long time friend and sadly he lost his stripes because I had to give him a bath. If you watch 'Winnie the Pooh', you should know that one of the episodes he lost his stripe when he took a bath. haha. This little guy is named Tiggy by his father. yes he has a father. (its a long story and a story that only remains in my memory)

The second tigger is call Big Head. now you know why i call him that, its so obvious. It was a 16th birthday present from my dear friend, Bee Hong. I love her so much. If someone gave any soft toy, I would just go OMG not another soft toy.. i hate it. But if someone gave me tigger, I would jump for joy. Anyways back to Big Head, he is like my pillow because i can actually hug him. haha. But such a sad story, my dear Big Head had five operations and its all because of that little rascal that came over to my house and grab Big Head, swinging him here and there. I was petrified.. (yes a bit dramatic ya...but its my baby ok..)

Last baby is also a gift from a friend in my high school in Brisbane. She was on a cheerleading trip in USA so she went to the original Disneyland and got me this little tigger. That's why he still looks kind of new. This little tigger hasn't got any history because he's just so kuai.. and cute.. haha..

All my babies have been there for me during ups and downs of my life. Hopefully I can pass it down to my own baby in the future ^_^.
So there you go, My beloved friends, lovers and toy. Tiggers. Woo hoo hoo hoo.

TTFN

It's not the heart that feels, Its in the mind

Here's one thing about me. I have been single for 3 years and still single now. Not a big deal. But when I start to have feelings for someone, friends and even my bro said it's not feelings.. it's desperation. Now this confuse me a lot. I really don't think that I'm desperate at all because I think I get to feel the wonderful feeling of love again. Plus this time I am able to find a boyfriend legally, meaning my parents gave me the green light.

Then another confusion struck me again when one of my friend pointed out that sometimes what you feel for another person its not out of love but instead its admiration and lust. The desire to be with that someone. To touch him, to hold him, to kiss him.....etc etc.. (A reminder that this is a girl point of view)

So then I realise what I feel for this guy in uni was out of admiration. He was such a gentleman and a smart guy and cute. I was indeed eluded by his cuteness and not see that we have nothing in common at all. I can be wild at times, energetic and switch to quiet from time to time. But I can never see him being the type that would fit me. So I kicked him out of my head.

During my revision week and exam week, someone came into my mind. just 'click' and he's in my mind. Luckily I manage to concentrate and pull through the exams. Even now, he's in my mind. As a pedantic person at times, I rethink and worry what would happen if I rekindle our relationship. Most times, it would be so great but what if it doesn't work out.

By the way, I'm studying in Australia and I have like 3 more years to go. The guy that is in my mind is back in Malaysia. It hit me right on the face that I would have to go through 'long-distance relationship'. This type of relationship totally sends out the message: shaky relationship.
Plus, I was once in a long-distance relationship and it only last for 2 months. The reason being was he didn't love me anymore. It was hard for me but I guess it was karma as well. This is because I broke 2 guys heart before and karma just hit me and brought some sense into me. There were only 3 guys in my life so far and sometimes I think it will only stay that way. Two remain good friends and those 2 were the hearts I broke. I'm really glad though that now we're in good terms because grudge can just kill you.

As for the other one you might ask.. Well I have no grudges at all on him, there is only silence. Memories and mistakes that I made which in turn become a lesson learned.

Anyways, I really want to go back to Malaysia but damn the economy and politics back home! (this will be in one of my blog post soon ^_^) All I can do now is just wait until June, so I can go back home and let things flow. Only time will tell.

Thanks for reading.

My Bedtime Story

I just want to share with you a little poem or my so call bedtime story before I sleep. This poem keeps me going strong each day. So I do hope it inspires you as it does to me.

Let me tell you something you already know,

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place,
and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.

You, me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.

But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward.
How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.

Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth.

But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you.

You're better than that!
-Adrian Pennino-

The Hypocritical Post

and I thought I would not be drag down into the dark side and end up blogging. No offense to all the bloggers out there but here's my first point of view on blogging:
Blogging
is a chance for people to be dramatic about their lives and also to be emo. Another thing is that blogs are an oxymoron. It is like a diary but in this case, it is publish on the internet hoping for someone to read it.

But you know, we are all human. So here I am blogging. I feel so compelled to say that there is a dramatic side of me. But fear not, I shall keep my blog as joyful as possible. There will be joyful contradiction and some interesting crap.

p.s: the whole truth behind me blogging is that: my uni break is like 3 months so this is what I have to face... owh the evil of dark side is all so strong... =_=